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The worker that had gone with me just stared at it with me, and we just stood there, numb. We turned around and went back home, and when I was back, I told my son that we needed to pray. During the prayer, my son started to weep, but I was completely numb and didn’t feel anything. The next morning, I tried to contact the insurance company, and they sent a construction crew to estimate the damages. They had just sent one person, and nobody else. He started to cut apart the drywall and remove all the wood floor, carpet, and cabinets before setting up at least ten fans in the house for seven days to try to dry everything. The process was so slow, and it made me very nervous because I had a tenant waiting to move in. After it was dry, the construction company sent someone for an estimate, and it took more than two weeks for it to be completed.
As we made the drive back and forth to the property in Orange Country, I cried every day and every time we went. I came before God, and I couldn’t figure out why this had happened. This house was supposed to be a miracle house, and I had written an article about it, how this house had come to us miraculously, and now this had happened. In my head, I kept asking why this had happened. It didn’t make sense why this would happen to me, to increase my burden.
I was now financially, physically, and mentally stressed. Even though I was in such a frail state, I still kept searching for why this had happened. Gradually, I understood that this was a life experience I needed to go through. I needed to help myself to be peaceful during all of this. One day I finally realized that miracles are not only material but are also spiritual. And during this near month-long period of dealing with this house and its water damage, I managed my stress and realized that a lot of miracles had happened during then.
For example, someone told me that one of the other construction companies said that it would take at least three weeks to fix the damage, and I told myself that I didn’t have three weeks, just one. Miraculously, I found a cabinet person that helped me do the cabinets in a few days. A worker slept in the house and worked day in and day out by himself to fix everything. It was a bittersweet experience, but we managed to finish repairs within ten days, and the tenant moved in in time. Looking back on it, I realized that this was the most valuable experience I’d ever had. Through the struggles and the stress, the Voice told me I needed to learn this to truly find peace.
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As I read this, I was moved and inspired by the peace I had found during the time of the letter. Sitting quietly here and now, I can’t help but cry out and ask: where is that peace I experienced back then? You’d think that over time I’d acquire even more peace, but that hasn’t been the case. What happened? Where did all of that previously experienced peace go? Isn’t this peace for always, now and forever and evermore
In an attempt to resurrect the peace I had discovered in the past, I ventured to the Santa Barbara Orchid Show where I hoped to surrender myself to the beauty and calm of nature. Despite the two-hour drive, I hoped that placing myself in the presence of these flowers would help jolt me back into the peaceful state I found once before. Unfortunately I was wrong, and while I enjoyed my visit with the orchids, they did not provide me with the peace I was looking for.
On a mission to find past peace, I went to Huntington Library in San Marino, California to see the beautiful scenes of Roses beds and Wisteria. They are so pretty and elegant. They attract hundreds of visitors, including me, but of course I did not find my peace there either.
I decided it was time to reflect upon my current situation and figure out how I could be depriving myself of the peace I was looking for. What I discovered was that I was drowning in my own low-energy thought: I was worried about my friend’s illness, saddened by my friend’s lay-off and scared for my own slowing home health business. I was letting all of these thoughts and worries consume me and, in turn, rob me of my own inner peace. I knew I had to take an action if I wanted to re-gain peace. So, I started to fast and began praying for myself, my family, my friends, my neighbors and everyone and everything else in my life. I thought that if I tried hard enough I would surely get my peace back. Unfortunately, not even this lead me back to inner peace.
Then, one day while walking around in my back yard, I saw new buds starting to grow from all of the fruit trees and flowers. Like a pure, innocent baby sprung forth from her mother’s womb, these little buds are full of possibility and peace. Like us, they are equipped with everything they need from the moment they enter the world. With a little sun, water and resilience against outside forces, they will indeed blossom.
Plants don’t preoccupy themselves with worry or fear – they just trust in the universe and grow. I found myself believing that the trees and the flowers must grow without the intention of something bigger and better and instead focus on the silent progress acquired within each new moment of life. Suddenly, I felt the beauty of life begin to blossom within me.
As I drew strength from the fruit trees and flowers in my back yard I realized that I, too, contain everything I need within. All I need to do is be still and trust in the universe as they do and I will be okay. And with this, I share with you what I consider to be the most beautiful truth in life: Peace has always existed within us. There is no need to go looking for peace outside of ourselves because it’s been there, within us, since before we took our first breath in life.
With this revelation, finally I could feel the peace I had found so long ago – the “Peace of I.” I didn’t find it by looking for it. I didn’t acquire it by working hard to find it. I didn’t feel it while allowing myself to be consumed by worry or fear for others or myself. Peace was within me the whole time. It never left. The peace of “I” that exists within each of us is always, now and forever and evermore.
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When I first set out to write “Zero Limits and I,” I had planned to finish it in three parts. However, soon after I completed part 3, I found an old letter that I had written to Dr. Len in 2009 that would unveil an entirely new idea that I’d like to present to you in this final section of Zero Limits and I, entitled “Peace.”
In total, I wrote Dr. Len three letters, two of which I already shared with you in the first three sections of “Zero Limits and I.” The third letter was written on September 15, 2009, and in it, I talk about a beautiful prayer called “The Peace of I.” Please find this prayer below:
The Peace Of “I”
Peace be with you, All My Peace, The Peace that is “I,” the Peace that is “I am.”
The Peace for always, now and forever and evermore.
My Peace “I” give to you, My Peace “I” leave with you,
Not the world’s Peace, but, only My Peace,
The Peace of “I”
The power of this prayer inspired me to write a third letter to Dr. Len several years ago, and as I read through it again just the other day, I couldn’t believe I almost forgot to share with you this most important connection I have to Zero Limits.I’ve included this letter below for your reading, as it marked a very important time in my life: the time when I discovered peace within me. It is my hope that when you’re done reading, you’ll be able to understand how I came to walk on this path of Zero Limits. (Please note that I interpret the meaning of “I” to represents infinity, divinity or cosmic consciousness.)
Dear Dr. Len:
Aloha from the City of Angels!!!
The Peace of ” I “
This is the closing prayer for the process of Ho’oponopono. Even after two workshops, and doing all the steps of Ho’oponopono day in and day out, I still did not really get it until a couple days ago, which was exactly 40 days after I finished my 2nd workshop at the beginning of August at Woodland Hills, California.
On September 10th, I woke up at 5:15 am, and could not go back to sleep. Was it that I was worried about my business? I asked myself. Yes… It has been very slow for a couple of months now. My last paycheck was stopped, I just felt a little bit unhappy, yet I was not as worried as I normally would have been. Good things came out of this. Because of my slow business, I had more time to do the cleansing through Ho’oponopono. I found calmness and peacefulness within…
I did not understand then why I was awakened that particular morning. I used to get a very clear message each time I was awakened in the past, but this time was different. My brain seemed to be empty, and I could not even think. I went downstairs, sat on the living room sofa, and tried to figure out what to do. Taking out my pendulum, I asked for the guidance. I asked myself, “Should I go out to work?” I seemed to get a quick answered with a “No.” This gave me time to do Ho’opopnopono process. I did that and some writing too. I then went to my dance class to get some exercise since I was taking a day for myself.
Just before I turned off the engine of my car when I reached the dancing studio, my phone rang. It was Maria (my acting agent) on the other end. “Guess what?” she said, sounding jubilant. I asked “What?” She then informed me that I booked the part for Criminal Mind TV show. This was totally unexpected!!!
I remember I rushed over to the audition site yesterday from my computer class. I had a hard time finding the location. Fortunately, the casting crew ran late, and I had time to do my cleansing before I got in. Of course, I also did the mental cleansing in the audition room in front of all the people inside. There were a lot of people, but I was, for some reason, at ease. I acted according to the producer’s instruction, and then I came out very calm and confident. I was amazed by my inner peace and completely forgot how rushed and anxious I was when I got there. How I was completely lost and had to ask the person after person how to find the location.
Peace be with you, All My Peace. That peace was with me before, during and after the audition. The Peace for always… I did not realize it when I was awoken that the divinity just wanted to tell me this message. Peace be with you, all my peace. The Peace for always, now and forever and evermore.
Later that day, I came home for lunch, and the phone rang…It was another call from my agent’s office, but this time I spoke with Nancy. She called to tell me that I would be getting the check for the residual income from the Dentyne commercial I recently shot and that had been airing nationally. She told me what the amount was, and I was dumbfounded. It was about the same amount that I typically make in a month… AMAZING!!! (Note: I did receive more than triple of my monthly income at the end.)
My Peace “I” give to you, My Peace “I” leave with you, Not the world’s Peace, but, only My Peace, The Peace of “I.”
The Peace is given to me and left with me; this peace is not the world peace but only His peace, the peace of “I.” This peace is indeed beyond all understanding. I know now this peace is for always, now, forever and evermore. It is such a comforting feeling that I feel that “I“ embraces me tight and whisper in my ear “ Peace, no fear.”
Alice Lin (September 15, 2009)